Nov 20, 2019

NOPE

Came off treatment at111.6 today, Dearies.

That's 245.5 pounds.

We'll see what happens tomorrow.

DOING MATH IN MY HEAD

It's D Day, Dearies. My off weight after treatment will be the one that I take to my appointment with Dr. Goggins tomorrow. Mercifully, they use your post-treatment weight for measure and not your day-of weight. (Dialysis patients typically gain fluid weight in between treatments, and it can be as much as five to ten pounds in some cases!)

Another thing to consider is the rinse back, which is the weight of the fluid and last little bit of blood that they put back in as you come off the machine.

Oh....and we do all of this in kilograms, which are the equivalent of 2.2 pounds.

My on weight is113kg/248.6 pounds.
Minus treatment will hopefully be 3kg/6.6 pounds.
Plus rinse back of .4kg/.88 pounds
Should equal an off weight of 110.4kg/242.88 pounds

Pray my blood pressure holds out, Dearies. If it crashes, they will have to push fluid back in, and that will mean added weight.

Oey with the numbers already!!

Thank you for indulging me these last many weeks. I promise that I will just shut up about it already and will convert my every waking moment/obsessions to something other than weight loss, Dr Goggins, blood pressure, and dialysis treatments. But...in my defense...this hasn't been a vanity exercise or the desire to fit into smaller pants. This is me wanting to live and doing everything I can to do so.

Plus, as soon as I get this new kidney we are going to have the mother of all stitchy retreats/celebration party/extravaganzas here in Hoosierville, and then I'm going to make it my business to travel from place to place and terrorize LNS's and stitchers everywhere!

OK...time to get under my blanket and watch the Flosstube. I am weeks behind and miss peeking into everybody's virtual windows!

God Bless and keep every single one of your dear hearts for putting up with me!

Nov 19, 2019

BLURRY TUESDAY

I'm here, but decidedly...blurry. I'm not sure if it's a d-chair hangover, sleepiness, or the gloomy weather, but my brain feels a bit elsewhere at the moment. The second cup of damn good is almost complete, and methinks there might be the necessity of a third today.  Fortunately, my schedule is full of a whole lotta nothing, so life will take me where it will...

Hoity Toity continues to delight:

And a new candle/crackpot Spinster fireplace sets the tone. This one is cinnamon...
(That's not a shrine, by the way. The photo needed a new place to live, and I like being able to see it from the Happy Chair. So no need to chastise me, Betty, for worshipping a dog.)

It would appear that our Tuesday is off and running with me dragging behind it, Dearies. What's on your Tuesday agenda? Come tell me all about it!

Nov 17, 2019

Nov 15, 2019

OPERATION GO...DAMNIT!

STARTING WEIGHT: 266
LAST WEEK'S WEIGHT: 245.7
CURRENT WEIGHT: 245.96
WEIGHT GAINED THIS WEEK: .26 pounds
FIRST GOAL: 252
DR GOGGINS GOAL: 245
MY GOAL WEIGHT: 240
ULTIMATE LIFETIME GOAL: 160

DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME...

That sound you heard was me having a fight with consciousness and losing. Me and the aggressive dialysis? Um, maybe not so much.

Exhibit A (blood pressure 110/70):

Exhibit B (blood pressure 90/50):

Exhibit C (Whoopsie Daisy...blood pressure 70/30):

Poor Lorie...this happened at shift change, so one minute I was telling Marcella I was starting to feel a little "tunnelly", and the next thing I knew Lorie was squeezing the saline bag for all it was worth to revive me.

(Tunnelly means I suddenly had the sensation of being whooshed backwards through a tunnel.)

(And not in the good way.)

Damn, drat, and phooey anyway. That fluid return meant that I came off the bloody scale .1 kg heavier than last Friday...a gain of almost a quarter pound. 🤬 I had really hoped to be able to light the fireworks today and unfurl the Mission Accomplished banner, but I guess that will just have to wait until next week.

Yes, I know that there is no way Dr Goggins will deny me for a fraction of a pound, but I am a completely over-achieving eager beaver perfectionist maniacal lunatic, and I want to walk in that exam room five pounds under his goal.

So, pray for me this weekend, Dearies. I am in the home stretch and not giving up now!  Who ever the patron saint of weight loss is better be sittin' up in the buggy, because I need all the help I can get!

TWO YEARS...


FRIDAY FUNKETY FUNK FUNK

Here's progress on Hoity Toity from the last few days:

And here's me doing my thing on a Friday, wondering who dressed me today (nothing matches!):

Oey with the blues already, Dearies! I need to snap 'outta this so that I can get on with the weekend. There is laundry to be done, soup to be made, and general shenanigans to be gotten up to. No time for sloth or feeling sorry for myself.

Next year I need to find a stitchy retreat during this week (or make one myself).

Dr. Goggins will be here Thursday! Can you believe GO day is almost here? I am asking for a very aggressive treatment today to take me below goal weight, but we'll see if I can tolerate it. I have my meds to keep my blood pressure up and a team of techs and nurses cheering me on. If I behave and have a very careful few days, it is assured that I will be able to look Dr G in his handsome face and say "I did it. It was hard, but getting a new life should be something that is, and I'm willing to fight for it with everything I've got left." LET'S. GO.

So that's me today....a delightful moosh of blahs, blues, and b*lls. I suppose it's not a bad combination, given the circumstances.

What are you up to today? 

Nov 13, 2019

Nov 12, 2019

THIRTY TWO YEARS


My mom has been gone thirty two years today. There are sometimes when it feels like yesterday, and others when it feels like more than a lifetime ago. I never thought about it, but the placement of her photo next to Dad's means that they literally look over me as I sit in my Happy Chair and live my life.

On the other wall of the corner hangs the "girl reading"needlepoint that Mom stitched when I was born, so I suppose it's natural that I would feel so very happy when I'm cozy in the chair with stitching or a good book or just my memories for company.

I have an errand to run for the JB this afternoon, and then I think I will come home and settle in with Hoity Toity and Dr. Zhivago. It was Mom's favorite movie, but I've never brought myself to the place to watch it.

Maybe today is the day to do just that.

Thursday will be three years since Stewey's passing, and although there is a heavy sadness about me this week, there is also a lot of peace knowing that he is in good company. Between my mom and dad and Uncle Connie and grandparents and other loved ones that are gone, I figure he is getting completely spoiled with love and turkey bacon treats and will be quite plump when next we meet.

Happy Tuesday, Dearies. Love one another deeply and well today!

Nov 11, 2019

MONDAY

I made good progress on HT over the weekend, Dearies! I decided to work the black background as I go rather than save it until the end, and am glad I did so. I think it really makes the colors pop, don't you? Such a pretty design, and I'm loving every minute of it!

Short and sweet today. We're having our first measurable snow, and I need to leave a little early for the d-chair.  Hope I can find my brush/ice scraper thingie!

Nov 10, 2019

Nov 9, 2019

I'M GETTING GOOD AT THIS WHOLE SATURDAY THING...

In my 53 years on this planet, I don't think I've ever had a more satisfying ritual. This is the fourth or fifth week in a row that I have had a Saturday morning coffee in the big girl sleigh bed, and I am just delighted that it still continues to make my whole weekend.

The binge watch of Downton started it...married women were served breakfast in bed. And, although, I remain your faithful spinster, once I started it I couldn't stop. I come by this honestly, I suppose, since I always though room service breakfast in bed at a hotel was the very height of luxury.

(What can I say? It doesn't take much to make me happy.)

Today's agenda is modified to include absolutely nothing other than a few errands (library and grocery), a big pot of goulash on the stove, the Notre Dame game (if I can get it on the interwebs), and stitching.  Cleaning and purging and organizing will just have to wait for another day.

Look at me, getting all cocky and rebellious! You would think I was an actual adult in charge of my very own life or something! The truth is that I am just a bit too wiped out from the week to contemplate anything physical, and I want to be lazy and cozy and cozy and lazy until it's time to go to church tomorrow morning.

Speaking of....I'm going to treat myself to the 11:45 mass with the Notre Dame Folk Choir. The time is too late for JB's liking, so we usually hit "smells and bells" at 10, but tomorrow I am going to go sit in that glorious place and listen to that glorious choir. Do yourselves a favor and YouTube them...especially the African Gloria. It's a bit modern and maybe a little "hippy dippy" for some, but one of my favorite memories was of my dad sitting there in the pew on an Easter Sunday and when the drums and such started he kind of cocked his head (as if he disapproved), and then he started tapping his foot. At the end of the service, the congregation jumped up and gave them a standing ovation...it was that good. I haven't heard them live since, so I am really looking forward to tomorrow!

But first there is a Saturday to be had and I should get on with it. The paper needs to be read, shoes need to be found, and library books need to be returned before provisioning can be completed.

I'll insert my progress pic from last night on Hoity Toity. I am making my was across the bottom row and hope to be filling in the black background soon!
Happy Saturday, Dearies! I hope your world is safe and healthy and happy and that your weekend is full of everything you want it to be! Come tell me all about it!

Nov 8, 2019

OPERATION GO...SO CLOSE!!!

STARTING WEIGHT: 266
LAST WEEK'S WEIGHT: 246.1
CURRENT WEIGHT: 245.7
WEIGHT LOST THIS WEEK: .4 pounds
FIRST GOAL: 252
DR GOGGINS GOAL: 245
MY GOAL WEIGHT: 240
ULTIMATE LIFETIME GOAL: 160

AND MORE SCENES FROM HOOSIERVILLE...ON A FRIDAY



Nov 7, 2019

SCENES FROM A QUIET THURSDAY IN HOOSIERVILLE




My appointment with the IU doc went exceedingly well. He was very happy with my chart and does not see any medical impediments to me being a successful recipient. Now I just need the green light from the surgeon (one pound to go!) and I will be officially activated on the UNOS list with two and a half years accrued thus far.

My blood type is B, which means my wait for a kidney will be a little longer than most...maybe up to another five years or so. If, however, a living donor becomes available, I am good to go!

Today will be nothing but Netflix and stitching. I was going to cook and clean, but decided to just enjoy the day instead. Saturday will be the day for housekeeping and such...right after my Downton Day abed with coffee and the paper.

All is well, Dearies! All is well. I am peaceful, calm, and happy and looking forward to the day. How about you?

Nov 6, 2019

BACK IN THE SADDLE



My eye is sufficiently better enough to come to dialysis today, Dearies. Thank you for your concern and gentle cooing...it looks like my eyes are just dried up a bit and I need to be more diligent with the Systane drops.

The weight is up a little bit, but nothing that a treatment session can't deal with. Four days in between   is the cause, as well as too much salt on my part. I roasted some broccoli last night and was a bit heavy-handed with the garlic salt. Oey.

JB leaves for New Jersey tonight on the train. I will miss him, but cannot tell you how much I'm looking forward to some spinster time. I have visions of cleaning and organizing and straightening, but I will probably just binge a bunch of spinster TeeVee and stitch.

Would that be so wrong?

One of my goals post transplant is to travel to stitchy retreats, seminars, classes, and to get back to my stitchy guilds. I miss my guild ladies so very much and all of the fun and trouble they got me into going on little stitchy trips to the House of Stitches.

I miss canvas work too, and have promised myself that I will pull a canvas from my stash and send it for threads and a stitch guide, or that I'll at least try to finish ones that are started and have been languishing.

(On that subject...what are your favorite shops for canvas work? I'm looking for a place that I can call for the whole shebang...chart, canvas, threads (i.e. a Laura J Perin design) or a place that would take a painted canvas and kit it up for me?)

Ok. Time for me to get settled in and start stitching. I'm making good progress on Hoity Toity, but had a bit of a frog session last night. Fortunately I caught my error before too much damage had been done, and all was right with the world again quickly.

Happy Futzingday! I hope your day is swell and full of fun! Come tell me all about it!

Nov 4, 2019

MONDAY IN A DIFFERENT CHAIR


No d-chair for me today, Dearies. I have (basically put) a bloody eye. It cropped up yesterday morning, and I assumed that I scratched it in my sleep. Gruesome, but benign. Today, though, it is a bit worse, very very sore, and somewhat swollen. Unfortunately, with this, they would be unable to give me a clot preventer, and that means I would clot and have to come off of the machine.

So here I sit instead, with the hopes that I will be able to score an eye doc appointment sometimes today or tomorrow to make sure everything is okey dokey, which I'm sure it is.

I had such a completely lovely day yesterday and stitched to my heart's content:


Hoity Toity continues to delight! Methinks she will be nice company today. I'm going to work the flowers across the bottom of the piece first...there are five...then the black background of the flowers, and then I think I'll work a bit up the sides before filling in the center moteefs. The linen is just like butt-a to me, and I am so completely satisfied to know this will be my toy for all of November!

So that's the report today. We're off like a herd of turtles to a good week ahead!

How's your herd moving today? Come tell me all about it!

Nov 3, 2019

SUNDAY SPINSTER BLISS...

It's not even 10:00 and we've been to Mass and back already and I am ready for the perfect day. I'm in the Happy Chair with a big soup mug full of damn good and the crackpot spinster fireplace:


It's a new one today...Yankee Candle Harvest smell:

And the paper and Hoity Toity ready to go:

Here's what I accomplished last night:


I didn't get started until later in the afternoon, but I'm very happy with my progress thus far. Methinks this is going to keep me occupied and very happy for quite a while!

This week brings the release of Erin Morgenstern's new novel called The Starless Sea. Erin is the author of a book called The Night Circus, which I just fell head over heels for. I am so looking forward to seeing what magic she brings in her new book!

JB will travel back to New Jersey on Wednesday to visit with his mom, which means I will have a week or so to get my act together here in the apartment. I have visions of deep cleaning and purging and organizing closest and drawers, but we'll see where the wind takes us. I do have an appointment with one of the IU kidney docs on Thursday, so at least I know one day will involve a bra and sensible shoes.

It's gorgeous and cold here in Hoosierville today, so I definitely see a nap in the big girl sleigh bed in my future.  But first...coffee.

Happy Sunday, Dearies! Come tell me all about your corner of the world today!

Nov 2, 2019

IT MUST BE AN OHIO THING


My Jersey Boy is aghast, I tell ya....simply aghast.

A big pot of chili has been bubbling away all day, and when it came time to sit down to dinner I decided to make some pasta to go with it. (See those elbow macaronis under all of that goodness in my bowl?)

Magoo just gawped at me like I had lost my mind.

Apparently, in all of his years on this planet he has never enjoyed what we lovingly used to call "chili mac" when I was a kid. Cincinnati has its chili atop spaghetti...we had it atop macaronis, especially at school. Chili mac was a staple and a truly revered dish of my childhood, and I suppose I was feeling nostalgic or something since it's a football Saturday and my Irish pulled off a victory.

But Rich? Nope. Not a fan of the chili mac. He pronounced it something only a "medigan" would eat, and ate his without.

Good.

More for me to have as leftovers this week!

So tell me, Dearies. Chili with or without?

SATURDAY


We just made a mad dash through the Martins for provisions, came home to a quick lunch, and then I made a big crockpot full of chili.

I'm bushed!

No housecleaning today, I'm afraid. I stayed abed until quite late and awoke a bit groggy and unmotivated.

That's why God made next weeks...right?

I'm going to have a lovely scrubby, don some clean pj's, and start Hoity Toity, Dearies. What's on your Saturday agenda? Come tell me all about it.

Nov 1, 2019

OPERATION GO

STARTING WEIGHT: 266
LAST WEEK'S WEIGHT: 247.9
CURRENT WEIGHT: 246.1
WEIGHT LOST THIS WEEK: 1.8 pounds
FIRST GOAL: 252
DR GOGGINS GOAL: 245
MY GOAL WEIGHT: 240
ULTIMATE LIFETIME GOAL: 160

MISS LINDA AT THE HOUSE OF STITCHES STRIKES AGAIN!


I'm prancy dancing all over the place, Dearies! Look what I get to start tomorrow after all of my chores are complete:


Hoity Toity arrived yesterday and it is prettier in real life than I could have imagined! As you know, I was conflicted about the linen, but Miss Linda hit it out of the park for me with a gorgeous cut of 28ct Picture Thus Plus in the color Sand. Perfection!


I would have liked to start this today, but I need to take some time to assemble my kit...project bag, Bitsy Bob, scissors, etc. and I need to zig zag the edges of the linen with my sewing machine. That's going to take a fair bit of time, and I was just too pooped to do all of that last night, and I think we're going to a basketball game tonight.

But this makes for a good plan for tomorrow: damn good and the paper abed, scrub the house like an Amish woman, put something lovely in the crockpot, and then settle in with Notre Dame on the TeeVee and have some fun playing with my new toy as a reward!

Who could possibly be happier than I am with that on the agenda?!

Happy Friday! Hopefully the next time I see you will be to report a good start and lots of progress!