Jul 16, 2017

SUNDAY, SUNDAY



Today is going to have to be a quiet day.  I just can't seem to get myself bounced back from that procedure on Friday, and I think my day-long outing yesterday (while wonderful) might have been too much for Yours Truly.

So I'm in the Happy Chair with Season 6 of Game of Thrones on the TeeVee, a vat of iced tea in my sippy cup, and my new project ready to play.

This week promises to be another restful one.  Nothing planned other than labwork and a few small errands.  Could it be that I am finally learning my lesson and scaling back my lifestyle to accomodate these kidney beans giving their last gasp?

The adjustment to being so careful got easier when I looked at it as a temporary thing.  Once I get the transplant, I can go back to running around with my hair on fire.  Now, though, I need to be a patient and live with some major limitations and expectations...right?

I swear, someday somebody will be able to fix this head of mine and erase all of the guilt and shame and worry and fretting over being lazy and unproductive and selfish.  Dr. Melfi almost has me convinced that it's OK to reframe "selfish" into "healthish" but I am, apparently, a slow learner.  But I'll get there and will learn that it's OK to say "No, thank you.  I just need to stay in bed today" or ask for help when something proves to be too much physically.

To that end, I am going to ride the scooter tomorrow at the grocery store and I'm going to promise myself that the first person that looks at me sideways and makes me feel embarrased about it will get a lovely smile and a mutter of something clever under my breath.

OK, that's enough philosophizing for one Sunday afternoon.  Back to stitching!

I hope that your Sunday is swell and that whatever you're doing is exactly what you need to blow your skirt up today!  Come tell me all about it!

24 comments:

  1. I just wish the scooters had more "scoot" in them & I don't care if people look at me cockeyed, cause if I notice I just picture them with a cick eye LMAO. Hey sometimes ya just have to pick something up @ the store & just getting from the car in the door takes ALL my strength. The scootless's are there to be used when necessary just wish I had my own (less germs) maybe it could have a souped up motor & flame decals on it
    Blessings
    Baa who seems to be very silly today 😋

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  2. I completely understand the guilt feelings! My dad raised us to believe that we "make hay while the sun shines". In other words when the sun is up and working, we are up and working unless we are very sick. I still carry that around with me! Right now my daughter and her boyfriend are here doing things that I can't do. When I told my daughter I felt bad about not helping, she told me, "We are here to do FOR you, not WITH you! Go relax!" Alrighty then...I came in and watched TV with her boyfriend's five year old son. Lesson learned! We do need to learn to relax...it does rejuvenate us.

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  3. Amen to all that! I hate it when things are bad enough I have to use the scooters at the grocery. I try to be grateful the scooters are there at all because otherwise I couldn't do the shopping, but all it takes is one sideways glance or comment, and that goes out the window. I know I shouldn't let the ignoramuses get me down like that, but it's so much easier said than done.

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  4. Wait a minute. Are you guys saying that if you use the scooter people give you nasty looks as if you shouldn't be using them? WHAT!? That's insane! Who would bother with a scooter unless they needed it?! People can be such idiots.

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  5. You should absolutely used the scooter. I have total confidence you will not be one of those people who back it up without looking.

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  6. A. I have always wanted to scooter around the grocery store, but so far, haven't gone to a grocery store with a scooter while sick.
    B. We want pix! Please take a selfie on the scooter! With your sunglasses on! Blowing a kiss to the haters!!!
    3. Anyone who looks at you funny will be jealous!

    Susan (aka Anonymous)

    P.S. Listen to Dr. Melfi . . . or else!

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  7. If anyone looks at you funny tomorrow during your scooter ride ask them if they would be willing to give you a kidney. then run over them!

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  8. I agree with stitcin schoolmarm! You could wear a sign "will work for kidney" or Don't need food or money but could you spare a kidney! Love You.

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  9. Just love Dr. Melfi's advice...whatever you can, you do,
    whatever you cannot, you get smart and support...It takes
    effort to get in and out and to reach a shelf from one of those carts and is not for wimps. Cross your eyes at the next moron who looks askance at you instead of thanking God they have been blessed and don't need one. Thank you
    for raising my adrenaline, Coni dear, I needed that push.

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  10. I love the new stitching pattern...and please do rest...what would become of us if we didn't have you to read !! Take care xx

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  11. Scooters are cool! You must do it!
    Healthy thoughts are following you and the scooter! Luv
    MaryO1230
    🏍

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  12. I had a rare Sunday off work. My stitchy piece this week is a reproduction Elizabeth Gooch by The Examplarery. Not as much done as I'd like as some life interrupted me more than it was supposed to!
    Coni, you're making good progress on how you need to live for you right now. Others can go fly kites if they look at you "strangely"!!!

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  13. I just noticed that you are NOT starting at the bottom. This is not a judgement, just an observation. Take it slow baby girl. All will be right in the end.

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    1. I am not really anonymous...just Edy in Southern IN

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  14. My Mother had COPD and used the handicap parking spaces. Coming out of the store one day, an older man sitting on a bench hollered to her that she didn't look handicapped. She turned and said to him....I'm pregnant! BTW, thanks for enabling me with your new start..off to order it. Take care of yourself, please.

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  15. Patience and relaxation and rest and stitching and...and..whatever you need to do to make yourself feel better is number one priority. Love your new stitching project. Have a great week Coni! Cindy from northern Illinois

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  16. I love your stitching--what a fun pattern!
    I have learned that we have to not worry about what people think. Most of their opinions are not valuable, anyway! I hope you'll be feeling better soon!

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  17. I have ridden the scooters many times and have found people to be very kind and helpful, even offering to get things off shelves or in the freezer area for me - both other customers and store workers. No one ever gives me a hard time about using handicap parking either. You just take care of yourself and don't overdo, and enjoy your new project!

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  18. Coni, use the scooter. My legs are damaged due to falls and I have to use the scooter most days. I'm very grateful that the stores provide them and don't worry about everyone else. I have found that people are kind and helpful. It took me a while to give in and use the scooters because I felt the same way you do --- everyone was watching me and judging me --- they weren't. I finally realized that this is the only way I can do any shopping for any length of time and am so grateful for the scooters now! You just relax and use the scooters and enjoy your shopping! Try not to run over anyone, though -- they tend to frown on that one!

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  19. Coni, I love your new start. I am glad you are listening to your body and resting when needed. I don't call that lazy, I call it being smart so you and your body will be rested when it is time for the transplant. If that means using a scooter at the store, then do it. Thinking of you!

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  20. The first time your disability becomes visible to others is crushing. When I bought my first cane, I carried it unused out of the drugstore, limping and crying. So believe me, Coni, we know how you may feel. Use the dang scooter, let the nice kid carry your groceries, take those naps. Keep what you have healthy and well. Let the guilt go! We get that, too. We're all raised to be superwomen and I'm tired of it. Take care of YOU now. And stitch a bit and tell us about it, because your work is so pretty :) -p. (On a tear this morning in soggy, monsoon-drenched AZ)

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  21. Awesome progress!!! It is lovely :) And people need to stop being so judgy! You enjoy your cruise around the grocery store on that scooter!

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  22. I have similar guilt, feeling bad as I can't do much and spend most of the time on the sofa....telling myself it's not laziness and I do the best I can. You, lovely lady, really help me with the feeling of solidarity and support. Thank you xxx hugs

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  23. People who give the stink-eye to those in scooters are showing what they're truly like. Sad, really. Enjoy your stitching. And your scootering.

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