BABY STEPS AND THE SPINSTER? UM...NOT SO MUCH

Apparently, I'm being tested by the universe to see if I've learned any lessons.

Nope.

I'm still trying to rule the world with my hair on fire, going a hundred miles an hour, with one eye closed, and a big vat of damn good in my hand.

Epic.

Fail.

Yesterday was just one big exercise on frustration, because I got very very little done. I decided to start by flipping my closet and putting all of my clothes away, but I got towels washed and that was about it. I had to sit down about every fifteen minutes to rest, and by the time 5:00 rolled around, I was completely wiped out and ready for bed.

Phooey.

BUT! Somewhere around 10:30 last night I flipped the script, sat upright in the big girl sleigh bed, and gave myself a little smack about the head.

I have a new kidney! 

And I don't have to cram everything into two days a week now, because I don't have to go to dialysis anymore! 

And I'm HOME in my own bed and with my own things and with everything that makes me happy all around me!

So I said my gratitude prayers again and gave myself a little pat and promised myself that I would just do what I could do and when I got tired I would stop and rest and be grateful that I could do so and just stop my moaning and kvetching.

I actually think this has more to do with the fact that I'm not 22 years old anymore. Age brought a lot of changes to me fast, and the transplant threw into specific relief the differences between being able to clean the entire house, run errands, get dressed, and go out cavorting...all on a Saturday...and having to take a nap after folding some towels.

So yes, the Spinster Stitcher is learning the baby steps and celebrating each and every one. I'm going to finish my damn good and see where the day takes me. And if it takes me back to the big girl sleigh bed...so be it. 

What can I say, Dearies? I'm a slow learner and always have been. Don't worry...I'll get it together eventually, and until I do, I am really really super mindful of my obligation to take care of myself and this kidney. As my beloved Dr G would say "You've got a new life now. Don't eff it up".