Jun 5, 2020


If I make it through this blog post without dropping several expletives, I might need a medal or something.

First of all, let me be perfectly clear.

I am, and continue to be, in perpetual awe of people on the front line of this crazypants virus, as well as anybody who has the job of keeping us safe and alive.

But the rest of the universe?

An enormous pain in my heiney.

I had my video appointment with my family doc's nurse practitioner. Her name is Almira and I love her.

There. I said it out load.

Almira said she doesn't think I have coronavirus, but there is obviously something going on to cause me to be unwell.

I'm not going to bore you with the details, but suffice it to say, I spent the entire afternoon putting a bra back on, getting in my car, waiting in line, and going back and forth to the medical center to try to get a chest x-ray, labwork, and a urinalysis.

It was a ginormous NOPE on all of it due to people being stupid, the radiology department getting infected by a positive patient, and the line being long enough that we missed the last lab pickup of the day.


The docs and nurses and security guards at the facility (the South Bend Clinic on Day Road in case anybody wants to know) were all 100% excellent, calm, and ON. POINT.

And they were 100% excellent, calm, and ON POINT in ninety degree heat, in a parking lot full of screaming people in cars, and in full protective gear.

If these people are not receiving combat pay....there's something wrong someplace.

Was I aggravated that I spent several hours trying to get tests done and that I don't feel good and am worried and doing my level best not to go over the fret waterfall?


But I am also acutely aware that people behaving badly, while understandable, is just not cute anymore.

What the woman in the white Escalade thought she was going to accomplish by screaming profanity out her window at the security officer directing the traffic is beyond me. Or why the guy ahead of me had to flip the bird at the nurse who handed him a mask? Or why the asshat behind me decided to lay on his horn because I was waived through since I wasn't getting swabbed, but the door to the lab was only accessible through the swab line, or...

Idiots, every single one of them.

Inconsiderate, entitled, stupid, jerky, nasty, ill-mannered idiots.

Harsh, I know, but I was so frustrated by my inability to fix it, that all I could do was try to be as gushy and grateful as I could when it was my turn and then take a deep breath when I realized I was going to have to do this all over again tomorrow and Monday.

So I will get up tomorrow morning and put my bra on and go for a chest x-ray. I am not going to go to the emergency dialysis treatment center at 5:00 in the morning, because I am not risking exposure if it turns out I have a simple sinus infection.

Then, on Monday, I will put my bra on again and will get the second covid test and the labwork and hopefully all will be well and I will go back to regular dialysis on Wednesday.

That's the plan, anyway, and unless something else throws a wrench in the monkey works, I'll be here in my Costco pajamas happily and calmly stitching away.

Now I really am going to put this iPad thingie away. I need to go de-people myself for a bit.

I hope and pray that your weekend is happy, peaceful, calm, stitchy, and healthy!


  1. Totally not funny -- the world is utterly horrendous, full of awful pathetic jerks, and I sure hope you're negative!!!!!!! BUT I'm sure laughing about 'put the bra on' and 'put the bra on' and 'put the bra on.' Sending love >>>>>>>>

  2. Oh my -- some people really are inconsiderate, entitled, stupid, jerky, nasty, ill-mannered idiots,and you had to run into a herd of them today.

    But when you feel like another blog entry, some of us (okay, me) are curious about the covid test, did they really stick a swab up your nose to your eyebrows, and how unpleasant was it really?

    Thank you! My partner will be getting one prior to some treatments in the next weeks, and I would like to know what to expect.

  3. Connie, your courage is amazing! Hang in there, baby sister! You’ve got this and we’ve got you.

  4. I will never understand why people feel entitled to treat other people that way. You need to do a psa on the tv or something. Hope you enjoy your weekend!

  5. Coni - I echo everything you said and am probably thinking many of the same things you didn't. I work with people 5 days a week and am thankful it is on the phone, not in person. But those same attitudes come often anyway. Not only has common sense become almost extinct, so has patience and understanding. Good luck, my dear.

  6. We can blame today on the full moon tonight but don't know about the rest of the week!

  7. I just don't understand the mentality of people. I don't blame you - I stopped playing catch up with the news (we don't get it unless it's on Youtube) because I think the media are enjoying this and one of the newspapers here, a reporter was blatantly telling everyone to rebel and mingle, to hell with the government. Doesn't she realise she's saying to hell with us who need to be protected? Selfish dumbass (hey I picked a US word!).

    Here my daughter collected her two kittens and now I have furry grandchildren. They aren't scared of the car or the new home - in fact they are already well settled - in one day!

    I could hear tapping in one egg under the hen last night. Oh I do hope all goes well for this morning's check up!

  8. Somehow I'm not surprised. People are people (sometimes incredibly stoopid).
    And I totally get the bra thing. Totally.
    Hope you're COVID negative and your fever and tummy troubles disappear very, very soon. Luv and prayers, m

  9. I'm not surprised some would take out their frustrations and anger at the whole entire pandemic situtation on those trying to get us through it. I must admit, depending on situation (like 90 degrees out and no air conditioning in the car), I'd probably have to use every ounce of self control to not be one myself. But I WOULD use it. At least toward the workers, not so sure about others who can't/won't follow directions.

    I had a memory pop in a couple days ago on stress and anger. Many years ago, we removed a chain link fence and it had concrete around the posts. I found it quite therapeutic to sledge hammer that concrete off the posts. I wonder if doing something quite physical when you are stressed out might be good? I'm not saying buy yourself a sledge hammer (or am I?), but it might be a good change from the fretting and worrying about fretting and worrying?? Or like the other day when you seemed angry at the world for no apparent reason. OTOH, I have no experience in being you, so maybe not.

    I hope you "only" have a sinus infection and not COVID!!

  10. Coni, I hope you are able to get your testing and diagnostics accomplished fully so you can enjoy your weekend! Thinking of you!

  11. SMH. These people are raised by wolves.

    1. Betcha if they were raised by wolves they would be nicer, haha. How'bout Komodo dragons...?

  12. It counts when you DIDN'T return evil for evil even though you wanted to! The tequila would be a nice little reward.