We've had quite a morning here in Hoosierville. As per usual, a favor for my sister turned into a major teary fiasco of epic proportions that resulted in Rich and I having some time for a "chat".
I'm the first to admit that I set myself up for failure most days because of expectations, and now that I am at end stage, I really should learn how to dial down those expectations and just do things in a simpler, more energy-saving manner rather than the full-blown bull in a china shop method that has served me so well these last 51and a half years.
(She says, sarcastically.)
In the midst of me trying to explain the stress I was feeling over figuring out the perfect place to put the Christmas tree and whether or not I should go with the four foot, six foot, eight foot, or eleven foot versions that I have carefully stored at Chez Spinster, Rich pipes up with "I'd like to have a real tree, Con, but I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want to ruin your decorating plans."
Fast forward three hours, a turkey sandwich, more tears, and some quiet time later, and I am in the Happy Chair with my stitching while Rich works out at the working out place.
We'll decorate next weekend.
Dr. Melfi will tell me that the reason why I am feeling so out of sorts lately is that I've gotten out of my lane again. I've allowed myself to veer over into the Land of Make Believe in which I am a 1954 housewife with perfect pearls and a pot roast, my sister is the same, and our homes and mates are perfectly appointed tableaus that could come right out of a Westinghouse appliance commercial.
But life's not like that. And sometimes it's a mess and difficult and not at all what you would want the world to see. It's frayed at the edges and, most likely, held together with spit and duct tape. It's unpredictable, sometimes frustrating, but almost always interesting enough that it is worthwhile sticking around to see what comes next.
So here we are on Thanksgiving Saturday...just learning how to be...real. Hmmmm. Maybe I am actually learning something after all.
I hope you are doing whatever your heart desires today...whether that means shopping or decorating or reading a book or playing with grandkids or staring at a pretty blue sky or just holding the hand or paw of someone you love. Do something wonderful and come tell me all about it!