Dec 16, 2017

JUST ME AND THE CHICKENS...



Rich is at the Martins securing provisions, and I am in my Happy Chair with my second cup of damn good, the Saturday paper, and the chickens for company.

Yesterday is a bit of a blur to be honest.  I think I slept most of it, but when I was awake, we binge-watched The Marvelous Mrs. Maizel on the Amazon thingie.  

It was wonderful.

(Rich and I have a running joke about me trying to be Donna Reed...with the pearls and pumps and pot roast, and this show was set in the late 1950's New York with a funny housewife who wore pearls and pumps, but who had more moxy and spunk than fifty Donna Reeds.)

(It's created and written by the same folks that brought us Gilmore Girls, so buckle up for lots and lots of snappy dialogue.)

So today I am resting and resting and then resting some more.  Rich will watch all of the sports on the TeeVee and I will try to get a few good stitches in between naps and snoozes.  I am still enjoying the Glendon Place piece, but confess that my woozy head is proving to be a big deterrent.  

On the kidney front, my plans have changed a bit.  Plan A was to hold out for a pre-emptive transplant from my sister.  That is, unfortunately, no longer an option, so I will move on to Plan B...dialysis.  I will still hope for a living donor to come forward, but in the meantime will follow the dialysis protocol and get on with it.  The good news is that dialysis will make me feel much better and I am promised lits of time to read, stitch, blog, and contemplate.

Plan B also involves moving everything out of the house and saying good-bye to it once and for all.  I had been also holding out hope that I could return to it, but alas, the time has come to say goodbye to it as well.  I'll mourn it, I'm sure, and I know that there are going to be a lot of tearful meltdowns every time I go over there to pack up the last remnants and then eventually have an estate sale, but...onward.

Rich and I have talked a lot about what life looks like a year from now.  The happy part of the conversation is that we both see us together and happy...we just don't have too many details as to how or where that will happen.

But I am, for once, very content with that thought.  I might not know where I'll be, but I know wherever it is I will have a hand to hold.

There is another Stewey in our future...that much I know.  For now, though, I dream about my Little and laugh at his antics, and cherish the pictures of him and the love and comfort he gave me.  I think my next Baby Dear will be a girl...most definitely a little Jack Russell, and I think I'll name her Daisy.  Stewey would have liked that, I think.

Wow...so much navel gazing for a Saturday morning!  Wonder what's up with that?

So that's all the news from Lake SpinsterBeGone, my friends.  I hope that you are enjoying a happy, healthy, peaceful weekend and that your very own navels are where they should be.

WooHoo!

 


22 comments:

  1. Here's to improvements in your future physical and emotional well-being. I think future Daisy will be an immense boost for you. I hope you don't put off her adoption much longer. You are clearly an animal person and animal people need animals. (I'm an expert on this. :) I can happily spend days without a human to interact with, but I need my fur therapy daily.)

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    1. Ain't it the truth!
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  2. Sending Love, hugs and prayers, Cathryn ♥♥♥

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  3. Wishing you only the best that Heaven can bestow as I
    continue to marvel at the courageous soul that you are.
    That year from now scenario seems more encouraging than
    might be considered and one the chateau is set aside, you
    will be lighter and more able to chart your course in
    confidence. Only the best, only the best. Have a lovely
    weekend.

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  4. Thinking of you, Coni! Rest up and kick that bit of flu to the curb.

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  5. A support dog will be able to attend dialysis with you I believe hmmm just saying.

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  6. I'm sorry that your sister hasn't come through for you Coni. Glad Rich is there. Take care. ❤️

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  7. Good for you, Coni. I know these were decisions you had hoped not to make, but I do hope you feel more in control of your own destiny having made them. I can tell you from my work as a psych nurse that the hardest bit is often the pre-big-decision time. Once those hard decisions are made and get implemented, yes there is grief, but there is also the peace of mind of no longer having to sort it all out...now you can focus on living the best life you can. I also worked as a dialysis nurse for a few years, and can tell you with confidence that you will absolutely begin to feel better once that begins. Dialysis is a time sink for sure, but oh my word, you will marvel at the bodily function you'll regain in return. Best of luck to you m'dear!

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    1. Violet S... I want to thank you for your words. I have another friend in a tough situation and I shared an excerpt of this with her, hoping she reads them and gets some peace and perspective from them. It's what I wanted to say but I would have been much clumsier/less patient. Thank you.

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    2. Beautifully said Violet Stitches...so very true! πŸ‘ŒπŸ‘

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  8. Praying for you m'dear! Life takes a lot of strange turns, but I think it's for the best. So happy there is to be a new fur baby in your life. πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ•πŸ•πŸ•πŸŒ·πŸŒΌπŸŒ»πŸŒΊπŸŒΉπŸŒΉπŸŽ„πŸŽ„πŸŽ„

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  9. So much positivity Coni! I'm happy for you...decisions made, plans in process, a future to look forward to. I'm so happy for you, and your JB (I love that, btw... happy grin!)

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  10. I'm sorry your sister didn't come through for you but plan B sounds like a step in the right direction and I love he one year plan!
    Hugs and prayers,
    Rose

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  11. I'm sorry about your sister, but you have said it was her decision to make. And pleased that you can now move forward with more certainty. Hang in there girl, all will be well. Yo remain in my prayers.

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  12. I believe things happen for a reason which we may or may not understand at the time, but it always seems to be for the best. Consider this the better plan and look forward to feeling better. Your future is bright, you have a hand to hold and soon you will have a Daisy. Losing your home isn't easy, I lost mine, but remember home is where you are and where love abounds. It will work out!

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  13. I am sorry about your sister Coni, but am very happy to hear about a new furbaby!! I am sure she will be sweet. I am a firm believer in dogs are what they are raised to be, and with all the love you will give her, she will be lovely!

    xo Mj

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  14. Been praying for you. I am glad that you will get a Daisy and have your JB's hand to hold. God bless you both and Merry Christmas!

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  15. Ahhhh, there's nothing like that sweet puppy smell. Ducan, the legendary prince, and Sabrina, her royal Airedale highness, both say they are awaiting Daisy's arrival with anticipation. They suggest a round of treats to celebrate. As for me, I'm sending a loving "me too" to what everyone else has so eloquently said. Your Bloomington contingent is holding you in our hearts. Merry Christmas to you and your JB.

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  16. How exciting! A new baby in the house! I was devastated when my Gabi passed away, but was so happy to have my new babies in my life. Love and happiness just keeps growing with furbabies in the house, regardless of what else is going on in life.

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  17. So happy to hear you are planning for a new puppy!! So exciting! She will be one lucky little dog to have you as a mother!

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