Yesterday was just not my day.
It started well enough. I got up at the heiney crack of dawn and went for my walk in a snowstorm. My phone thingie told me that I exceeded 3,000 steps (which was my daily goal for this week), so I came home a little bit frozen...but happy.
After a hot scrubby shower and a quick bag pack, I had about a half hour before it was time to head out to dialysis, so I stitched a little and made googly eyes at my Jersey Boy while he watched all of the March Madness coverage on the teevee.
My chair time, unfortunately, was a complete disaster again. I won't bore you with the gory details, but suffice it to say that my Monday was spent in pain, feeling woozy, and weeping quietly in a corner and feeling sorry for myself.
It. Sucked.
By the time I made it to the Targets for prescriptions and then home to CS2 I was just completely done. Rich left for pickleball and I headed to the big girl sleigh bed...where I clutched Stewey's blue blanket like some kind of lunatic, sobbed my pitiful little heart out, and fell into a deep sleep.
Today I am reeeaaallly hungover, so thus far I have managed to have my damn good, read lovely notes and emails from my peoples (that would be all of you, Dearies!) and watch the snow fall again. As soon as it's just me and the Chicken Sisters here today, methinks I might put on a little Flosstube, thread up, and just disappear into the Land of Happy Stitching in the Happy Chair for a bit.
Thank you, my friends, for all of your love and support. When I tell you that it is literally keeping me going...that is not an exaggeration. Every time I feel like just giving up I can feel you holding me up and whispering encouragement in my ear.
Onward, right? Today is a new day and I am determined to turn this Titanic around. Here's to a Terrific Tuesday for one and all...come tell me all about it!
Who said "been down so long, it looks like up to me?" It WILL get better. Have faith. Love and caring.
ReplyDeleteConi, thinking of you. Take each day as it comes, one step at a time. You can do this.
ReplyDeleteConi, sorry you had a crappy Monday. You do what helps you to get through. Your stitching looks lovely, amazing how it helps through life's struggles. Funny note for you, my mom has dementia and loves her coffee, I tell her I am getting her some damn good and she just laughs so thank you for that funny. Spring will be here soon and will make us all feel better.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear the ick is over. At least with myself and at our age, any working out before any kind of stress to the body is usually risky (as I have found out the hard way). But exercise is still a must just not before dialysis it seems. Hope you're toasty and stitching. We're about to lose power any minute in this brutal nor'easter...again!
ReplyDelete"I'm so far behind, I think I am first" they are all behind me... Keep thinking yourself first, Coni dear. It
ReplyDeletewill eventually all be behind you. In the meantime, you
have chosen the better plan of rest, stitching, hugging
a precious blanket and being restored by the damn good.
Hope it is all brighter by day's end.
Dear Coni, don't forget that's quite a large iceberg you're dodging! Show us that you can do what a large and self-important ocean liner couldn't - but don't expect us to be surprised.
ReplyDeleteAnd I've just found a quote from John Lennon: "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end." Not just a pretty voice!
Oh Coni...glad you had Stewey's blankie to cuddle into. I've spent my share of time this week and last crying into my blankie too. It makes me feel much better after shedding a few. Thread up your needle, sister...I have to pull out my frog this morning...a fact that I'm not going to cry about today. XOXO
ReplyDeletecontinued love and prayers for you Coni - stay the course.
ReplyDeleteYou've got a hard road to walk, my dear, and a good weep every now and then is OK. In fact, it's therapeutic! It's not easy being a big girl all the time. We're here for you- for each other. Hugs, continued prayers. -p.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, Coni! The stitching you have planned looks wonderful. ❤️❤️❤️
ReplyDeleteConnie, you hang in there! You have inspired me to get back into cross stitching! even though I had to go and buy 2.75+ readers in order to be able to see to stitch! haha I hope you have a better day today. Lucinda
ReplyDeleteOnward indeed!! You WILL have better days. This one sucked. Leave it behind. In the meantime give yourself a good pampering!!!
ReplyDeleteConnie-dialysis has all been uncharted waters that you are making your way through. There will be good days and bad days until it all gets figured out. Snuggle that blanket, cry and stitch, do whatever you need to help you get through it. Have a wonderful day. Cindy
ReplyDeleteYou are such an inspiration, hugs to you
ReplyDeleteYou're an inspiration to us all! Cry, stomp your feet, yell...whatever helps. Then move on as you always do. Happy stitching to make it a better day. Judi in Tulsa
ReplyDelete3000 steps!!! That is awesome! Do you use an app to count steps? I seriously need to get my feet in motion. I am really sorry your Monday was such a MONDAY. I am praying that each day is better this week.
ReplyDeleteUgh..hang in there. I wish I had something helpful to say. Maybe I could break into song? Hey...it would make you laugh at least. :-)
ReplyDeleteYour determination and grit are inspiring. You always manage to hang in there - sense of humor intact. You're amazing.
ReplyDeleteHey keep going you can do it and all the love you have around you will get you there. Life is hard sometimes, but once we recognise that we also see that it is beautiful too. Keep creating beauty and keep going onwards. Love your blog and read it every morning in the land down under..
ReplyDeleteConi, I hope tomorrow is a better day for you! Love your cross stitch, it is amazing how cross stitch helps in tough times.
ReplyDeleteHi Coni! I hope today was better. Normally quilting is my craft of choice, but, well, long story short, my sewing machine went kaput this week. Need to save up for the new one. But in the meantime, I have been inspired by you to do a little stitch-y project in my evenings. It's nothing like yours- more like satin stitch embroidery, but it's thread & fabric so I say it counts. Thanks for sharing your adventures with us. Hello to JB & the sisters!
ReplyDeleteI can't wait for the day you say, "dialysis was awesome"! And the next day, and the next day....... Prayers, my dear.
ReplyDeleteWell today I built a leprechaun trap. My 4 year old's preschool class is trying to catch a leprechaun so we built a trap of his design. 4 year old's have some ideas!
ReplyDeleteAnd I am so hoping you are feeling better!
"Thread up" -- love it! Hope you and the Chicken Sisters had a better day.
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Ihate to hear of the difficult time you are having, surely not all dialysis is like this. Seems like the Doctors need to get involved and see why things are so bad.
ReplyDeleteSorry you had a crappy Monday! Praying today and the rest of the week are much better!
ReplyDeleteConi, so sorry about your day. It is behind you now. Hope you had an enjoyable floss tube experience. You ARE loved. Love, hugs, and prayers, Cathryn ♥♥♥
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Coni. I am so sorry you have had so many crappy dialysis sessions...it will get better. You are such an inspiration....hang in there, hugs and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI think it may be time for you to look at the possibility of adopting another ... dog, puppy... Yes, I know it may be unthinkable to try to replace Stewey,but you won't be replacing him, only making room for another companion. I think you may need a warm puppy to hold while you are "in the chair." Just start to maybe think about the possibility. It took me 4 years to get another cat after my cat Edgar died. I miss her everyday and no one will ever replace her, but there is room to add another cat, or two <3 You are a great inspiration...
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