But who am I kidding? You continue to read this blog and, I suspect, continue to put up with me and my silly shenanigans because of one reason and one reason only.
Stewey.
Eleven years ago yesterday, I held that little three pound bundle of fur in my arms for the first time and can honestly tell you that I thought my heart would burst with the amount of love that was inside of it.
Today, I'm pretty sure that that very same heart is going to break into a million pieces.
Stewey has bone cancer. And, despite the fact that I would give my own life to save his, there is absolutely nothing I can do but keep him comfortable and spend as much time with him as I can. I know that I am in shock and I know that there is a very large part of me that wonders if I will actually survive this, but for now I am just trying to breathe in and out and not let him more than two inches away from me.
Yes, I realize that with all that is going on in the world, the impending loss of a pet seems positively trivial, but I make no apologies for my tears or admission that this little creature has been the absolute love of my life and I have not one single clue how to navigate this.
So I will ask you to pray for us and to keep us in your happy thoughts. I might not be here at the blog as often as I have been, but I know you'll understand.
Stewey sends his love, too. I am pretty sure that he knows and understands the diagnosis, because he laid very gently in my arms at the vet's office and when Dr. Nieman gave us the news he reached up and kissed my tears away before laying his little head on my shoulder. We're in the big girl sleigh bed for a nap as I type this, and he is snuggled in close listening to the clickety clack of the keyboard.
I think he is at peace.
Thoughts and prayers are with you!
ReplyDeleteSue in MD
Oh Coni, sending you strength and love. Please let Stewey know that he gave us laughter and joy for years and that he is blessed to have you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. We lost our first beagle to mast cell. He knows you love him and have given him a happy doggy life, and you will do the right thing when the time comes. ((((Hugs)))) and I'm crying with you.
ReplyDeleteConi I'm so sorry that Stewed is sick. I will she'd some tears for you both. Hugs!
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ReplyDeleteOh no! So sorry to hear this news. Good thoughts sent your way!
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you.
ReplyDeleteYou've shared so much together, most of all love for each other. We're all crying for you and sending you strength and love.
ReplyDeleteOh Coni, my heart is breaking for you. I'm so sorry to hear of this news. Please let us all help you to carry this burden of sorrow. Sending prayers and hugs to you and your Stewey.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for you my dear. It is not trivial in the least. I know what you are going through. Our elderly feline that we adopted late in his life was diagnosed about three years ago with a multitude of issues and cancer is one of them. I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteOh, Coni, I am so very sorry. Loving our fur babies can be every bit as meaningful as loving other humans, and, I know from experience, that sometimes those furry faces enable us to make it through whatever trials life throws at us. They are our havens from the wilderness, our strength through adversity, and our joy in the midst of chaos. So to lose them is like losing a limb. My heart is so sad for you, and for Stewy too. He has been so well loved and I believe he will feel that love from you forever.
ReplyDeleteOh my heart seriously breaks for you. So sorry to hear of his bone cancer. Thoughts and prayers are with you and Stewey.
ReplyDeleteOh my heart seriously breaks for you. So sorry to hear of his bone cancer. Thoughts and prayers are with you and Stewey.
ReplyDeleteMany hugs to you, Coni. I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteDear Coni, I am so sorry for you and Stewey. I must say that I'm having a little cry for you too... Our lives are just much fuller for having fur babies in it. I dont think they realise the impact on our lives. Just remember to take photos of him sooner rather than later and perhaps a paw print too.. you might not think you need it, but another close friend lost her dearly beloved cat last month and wishes she had.. all the best for you in the coming weeks and I'm sending you a warm hug from Australia xxxxxx
ReplyDeleteGasp! It is not trival when the single most important person/dog in your world is so terribly ill!!! Such sad news! I hope you will still have lots of time together.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry about this terrible news. No need to apologize for loving such a precious creature as Stewey. Of course you are heartbroken--who wouldn't be? I hope for peace for both of you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Stewey. It's so hard to lose a pet, there one of our kids.
ReplyDeletePlease keep us updated.
Not trivial at all. I'm so very sorry. Prayers for your both.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs to all and prayers, we all understand perfectly. Stewey has sort of become my little dog in the blog world, and I'm normally a cat person.
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh! I totally understand. I'm also a spinster and my "pet" isn't a pet, he's my KID, my FAMILY, my BABY, my BESTEST FRIEND! I am so very, very sorry. Yes, you will get through it, but it's not going to be easy for sure. I'm so very glad he has you as a mommy. This is the time it really counts...to be the best we can be, to care our best, to love our best, for our friend. I'm here for you if you need to rant and rave or just cry. You have my email address. Just remember that you are loved and we are here for you. Sending HUGE hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh, Coni. My best friend also has four legs (sorry, DH), and I'm sitting here crying with you. We all in blog land hope for many more comfortable days for your buddy and peace for your heart. Love you, Stewey.
ReplyDeleteI am dreadfully sorry and sad that you and Stewey are going through this. Getting to know you both here has been my pleasure and as Pamela said we are here for you. I hope you both can somehow feel our support.
ReplyDeleteI am crying - for you, for all of you who have furbabies, for my 16 year old furbaby and her coming end. Coni, hugs and kisses to you and Stewey. Remember, dogs leave paw prints on our hearts.
ReplyDeleteCoin and Stewey, so sorry to hear this news. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteThoughts and prayers are with you. Getting to know you both here has been my pleasure and as the others have said we are here for you. I hope you both can somehow feel our support.I must say that I'm having a little cry for you too... Our lives are just much fuller for having fur babies in it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for Stewie's diagnosis. Many of us love our pets just as we love our human children. Unconditional love does not differentiate, nor is it trivial. Sending positive thoughts to both of you. Your blog has brought me much laughter and "oh yes, I get that" over the years. Thank you for sharing your life and Stewie with us.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry! Your Stewey is precious and I completely understand how you feel. Smother him with your love. Peace.
ReplyDeleteLove him and hug him and do all the things he might still enjoy doing my heart breaks for you and Stewy. God bless you both during this very sad time
ReplyDeleteLove him and hug him and do all the things he might still enjoy doing my heart breaks for you and Stewy. God bless you both during this very sad time
ReplyDeleteOh Coni,
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry. Please give Stewy a hug and tell him he's loved by many. You are too.
Best,
Jenny
I can not type...too many tears!
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and happy thoughts your way Coni and for Stewey. I know its hard, but try and remember the fun times that you've had with him.
ReplyDeleteLinda
Dear Coni,
ReplyDeleteI'm a loyal reader, but very rarely post comments. I was so shocked to read about Stewey -- I just had to reach out to let you know how sad I am to hear this horrible news. I can't pretend to know how you're feeling, but have been through this kind of loss myself with some pet children. My last was six years ago, and even though my life was so much better with Catboy in it, I can't make myself go through it again. It's terrible, awful to go through and hard to get over. Keep Stewey close and be brave. He has loved you best of all, and your love of him has made his life grand. I'm so sorry and will be thinking of you and Stewey.
My heart is broken for you & sweet Stewey. I wish I could give you a hug...losing our babies and a huge part of our daily pattern of life is so difficult. Prayers for you both. Stewey feels the love you have for him and you must know he absolutely adores you. Prayers for comfort. Take all the time and know that your (& Stewey's) "family" will wait until you are ready to blog again. Blessings
ReplyDeleteMy heart is broken for you & sweet Stewey. I wish I could give you a hug...losing our babies and a huge part of our daily pattern of life is so difficult. Prayers for you both. Stewey feels the love you have for him and you must know he absolutely adores you. Prayers for comfort. Take all the time and know that your (& Stewey's) "family" will wait until you are ready to blog again. Blessings
ReplyDeleteOMG.. I am so heartbroken with you. Sending love and prayers for you and Stewey. Cathryn
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry to hear that. We lost a beloved pet a few years ago to cancer and it was very hard. The only comfort you can give yourself is that you have given him an absolutely wonderful life and lots of love. He will help you get through it in his own little way. Sending prayers.
ReplyDeleteI've never even met you or Mr. Willowswamp and have burst into tears at this news. I'm just so sorry. I've read your blog for many years, and you've inspired me to do many stitching projects (Harvest Moon House, Bird in a Nest, and The Stitching Shop to name a few), and I felt like both of you were my friends. My heart goes out to you and your beloved companion.
ReplyDeleteSuch heartbreaking news for you. I will pray for Stewey and for strength for you through the process.
ReplyDeleteMary in MN
I share your sorrow. Stewey is a remarkable being and your close connection is apparent. I know this time you are embarking on will be very precious and personal. I and many others are pulling for you both. Much love and prayers.
ReplyDeletePrayers, hugs, and understanding for you and for Stewey. I'm so very sorry.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you. We lost our Striker 5 years
ReplyDeleteago . It's not silly or trivial. Pets are truly part of the family that give totally unconditional love. I feel very badly for you.
I am so sorry to hear your bad news. Losing a fur baby is terrible. Six years ago yesterday I lost my Yorkie Ringo to liver cancer. He was 12. It still makes me cry. What you are going through is not trivial and I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you. I fell in love with your sweet pup the minute I first read your blog. May you draw comfort in knowing you are in the prayers and warm thoughts of many. Words can't express how we wish we could help.
ReplyDeleteit is always sad when we love, it doesn't matter if it is an animal or person and we look like losing them.thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteOh, Coni, my heart is breaking for you both! Always remember that you've given Stewey such a wonderful life. I hope you're able to find peace with what's to come and that you & Stewey enjoy every last moment you have together. Gentle hugs to you both...
ReplyDeleteSo sorry Coni. Praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI can't begin to tell you how sorry I am to hear about Stewey. My prayers will be with you both as I know what you're going through. When you have the chance read The Rainbow Bridge poem, it helped me when I lost my beloved Bogey.
ReplyDeleteThere are tears in my eyes as I type this. I am SO sorry about Stewey. Our pets are so much more than that, they are family members, and it hurts as much to lose them as it does a human family member. My thoughts are with you.
ReplyDeleteI have no words that will stop your hurt but know you and Stewey are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteHugs!! We just went through this two weeks ago with our 8 year old cat. We understand what you are going through. It's rough, but you'll be okay.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sad for you both. Thoughts and prayers sent your way.
ReplyDeleteDamn cancer! I'm so very sorry. Prayers for you both.
ReplyDeleteOh God, I am so so sorry. The impending loss of a dog is by no means trivial. I lost my Reggie 18 months ago and I'm still so very very sad. After my husband left me, I got him for my sons as a distraction, but who am I kidding, he ended up being my baby, especially after they left for college. I only had him for 9 years, but I wish I had known how sick he truly was before I had to say goodbye. I'm telling you this because I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that you can give him all your attention & love at this time. You will look back and be grateful for that. You & Stewey are in my thoughts & prayers (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry! Praying for you both. It's awful to be in this position, be it with a furry family member or not.
ReplyDeleteYou are both in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteConi, I am so sorry. The two of you are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeletesending you both lots of love and gentle hugs
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to read this sad news. gentle hugs for both of you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear the news, pets are family and it's hard to lose them. hugs for you both.
ReplyDeleteDear Coni and Stewey, you have my prayers and love. There are no words to consol, but your love for Stewey is felt through your words in the blog and we all ache with you and for you.
ReplyDeleteI too have experienced such a loss and it a deep ache.
Sending you love and hugs.
All of today's news is heartbreaking. I am so very sorry to hear this. My heart just breaks for you. Hugs and prayers are all I have.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear this news. What is wonderful about our smooch pooches is their unconditional love. Gain your strength from the memories you hold dear in your heart. Give him a little kiss on the cheek for me. He's a little cutie. Hugs to you too!
ReplyDeleteThere is absolutely nothiing trivial about the news you have recieved and your feelings.Like every one who has commented I am so very sad to read your news about Stewey.Take care Coni of youself as you take care of Stewey.
ReplyDeleteWhat a heartbreaking post, pets are part of our families and when they are sick,we feel so helpless. Please know that you and Stewey are in all of our thoughts and prayers. Kind thoughts and hugs to you both.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry to hear this. We've been through it too, more times than I care to think about, and it is never easy. {{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}
ReplyDeleteTears are pouring down my face after reading this, I am so incredibly sad for you. I lost my boy years ago and still think of him every day, and I still miss the joy he brought to my life. Savour every day, sending huge hugs xxxx
ReplyDeleteConi, I don't normally comment on your blog, but I had to write and say how sorry I am, my heart is breaking for you. Take care, Sandra xx
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry. I know how you are feeling God bless. xx
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry to hear this.
ReplyDeleteYou both are in my thoughts.
Take care.
Marilyn
Oh Coni, my heart is breaking to hear about Steweys diagnosis. My furry babies are my best friends and I have been through several diagnosis this year with them. So, my heart caught in my throat to read this post. Please don't go too far away. I would like to know how you are managing-when you are able. My thoughts and prayers for you.
ReplyDeleteI am devastated to hear this sad sad news and crying as I write. We, your many friends, love Stewey as much as we love you. Hold him close and enjoy every moment with him as you have always done. You may have to make a hard decision but please, don't be afraid to make it if the time is right. It's the hardest thing you will ever do, but you have to do it. Take heart, have courage. We are holding your hand and Stewey's little paw. Xxx
ReplyDeleteConi, I follow your blog although I rarely post. I know your mind is numb with grief and shock right now but try to remember one thing...you are braver and stronger than you think (to paraphrase Pooh). You will be navigating through difficult times but you will get to the other side. Have faith and courage. I echo everyone's comments when I say that you have an entire cyber community of friends who are surrounding you in prayer, positive thoughts, and love.
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you and Stewey.
Oh Coni! I am so sorry to hear this. I have been in a similar spot with 3 of my cats over the years, all but one a long time member of the family. Your heart will break and you will mourn, but you will have your memories to make you laugh and smile when the time is right.
ReplyDeleteKeep Stewie comfortable. He knows he is loved despite all of his ranting here to the contrary. You will know what to do when the time comes.
Hugs!
My heart is aching for you. I have a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel that is dying from heart failure. Try to enjoy every moment they are with us because soon they will leave us. Prayers for you both.
ReplyDeleteAww I'm so sorry. Sending you both lots of love and hugs. We lost our Gracie last fall, after 16 years. I cried for months and told all my friends my pets are family and I've had her longer than most women keep their husbands so I'm allowed to grieve as long as I need to. So cry and cry and make no apologies to anyone for a broken heart. It's a sign of just how big your heart is.
ReplyDeleteConi, we love all 3 of you! I'm about to cry myself....I'm so sorry. You just love that sweet puppy til it's time for him to cross the bridge. My dogs are like my children as well, so you don't worry about what anybody else thinks. Kiss Stewey for me.
ReplyDeletePam
Dear Connie,
ReplyDeleteI am so sad for you and will definitely pray for you and Stewey. I have gone through this with four beloved cats and a very much beloved husband and you are stronger than you think. That said, it is a hard journey and we will all be supporting you and loving you as you go through this. Be sure to share with us as we are all very concerned for you and want to be there for you. Liz
There are no words. Just prayers and hugs and you make your way through this.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this sad news. I kept My "baby" Winnie alive for probably two years after I should have let him go. I still miss that dog, even though we now have another. But just like children, you don't love them exactly the same way, but you can love another just as well. The heart has infinite room when it comes to love.
ReplyDeleteOh my....you will survive. You have been there for me during this past year with my sick daughter. I thank you again. Please know I am here for you. God Bless You and Street.
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DeleteOh my....you will survive. You have been there for me during this past year with my sick daughter. I thank you again. Please know I am here for you. God Bless You and Street.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear of your very sad news. Hugs to you and Stewey.
ReplyDeleteConi, I am sorry to read your news. Sending gentle hugs your way and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteConi... This news is so sad, and I am so very sorry.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry to hear this.
ReplyDeleteLike many others, I've read your blog for years but have never commented. You are one of the most intelligent and humorous writers I've ever read, and it brings me such joy and happiness to hear of your and Stewey's (and Bosco's) adventures in needlework and life! It is not trivial when one of our companions is going through such an illness. They are our confidants, are totally forgiving, give us boundless love and joy unconditionally. I truly believe they are a reflection of God's love for us. Know that you will have a very great number of people praying for you and Stewey. Hold him close in your arms, and closer in your heart.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this sad news. Hold him close to your heart for he will be there always.
ReplyDeleteConi, you and Stewy are so lucky to share the love you have for each other.
ReplyDeleteDearest Connie, I'm so very sorry. It is not fair that our furniture babies cannot live as long as we do. They take a piece of our hearts when they leave us. Having sent 4 pieces of my heart over the Rainbow Bridge my only advice is to love him, keep him as comfortable as possible and listen to him. He will tell you when it's time for him to go. Let Bosco cheer you and help you through this. Know I am here, praying.
ReplyDeleteHugs
Rose and my fur babies (Bailey, Jack and Buster)
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ReplyDeleteOh Coni, I am so sorry to read this sad news. I went through this with my greyhound Gabe several years ago, so I know how you feel. Keeping him comfortable is the best thing to do, and he'll let you know when it's time. So many hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteOh Coni, I am so sorry to read this sad news. I went through this with my greyhound Gabe several years ago, so I know how you feel. Keeping him comfortable is the best thing to do, and he'll let you know when it's time. So many hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteSad to hear this news. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteSo terribly sorry to hear this news....spend as much time with him as possible. I completely understand since this happened to my dog 2 years ago. Big hugs!
ReplyDeleteDearest Coni - our thoughts and prayers are with you and Stewey.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear this news! Thoughts, prayers, and hugs to you and Stewy!
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear this awful news. Please remember, that this is as important as anything going on in this world. Love trumps all. I lost Zucker many years ago and miss him to this day. My thoughts are with you and Stewey.
ReplyDeleteI am sorrier than words can convey. God bless you and Stewey.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is broken for you. Sending all my love and hugs to you and Stewey!!
ReplyDeleteOh, Coni, you should never feel that it is wrong to mourn the loss of a family member. You gave Stewey a wonderful life of love and laughter. No of us can ask for more than that. Sending love and virtual hugs to you, Stewey and Bosco.
ReplyDeleteWhatever is going on in the world, your world is just as important. I am so sorry. I wish our thoughts and prayers could make this easier, and I hope in some way they do.
ReplyDeleteOh Coni, my heart broke for you reading this. My thoughts are with you, Stewey and Bosco.
ReplyDeleteOh, my heart breaks for you...sending loving and caring thoughts and fervent prayers for you and Stewey. I just humanely destroyed my horse of 25 years, Mighty Joe. I understand how your heart is breaking.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. My thought and prayers are with you both. Hugs to you all.
ReplyDeleteDear Coni,
ReplyDeleteFirst, this is not trivial at all, this is one of the profound things that happens - we lose a soul that owns a huge piece of our heart. Know this as well, you will get through this, it will feel like you won't most of the time, but you will. One foot ahead of the other, one moment at a time, lots of hugs and tears.
I am so very sorry for you and Stewey. I know, Puffy, Pepe la Pue, Shane, Tippie, Calypso, Andrew, Christie - they have all crossed the rainbow bridge. The circumstances of their crossing were varied, with Andrew's perhaps the closest parallel. I learned to give him subcutaneous fluids and he was so cooperative and sweet, but finally let me know it was time to stop that and let him go. And so I did.
So, I know you will do everything possible to make sure that Stewey is comfortable and pampered, and will make sure he gently crosses the rainbow bridge when the time has come.
Remain confident that you have given him a wonderful life, and you have loved him sincerely, deeply, faithfully, as he has loved you. That is a bond that death will not break. You will miss him and mourn his passing, but remember that Stewey would expect to you carry on, and want you to enjoy your life. He loves you too, and wants the best for you (as long as you give him his tea and toast for breakfast ;-) ).
Lots of hugs and prayers for you......
There is nothing trivial about losing a member of the family, especially those furry ones who depend on us for everything. My heart breaks for you. It never gets easier to do the best thing for our beloved family members.
ReplyDeleteConi, I'm so very sorry to hear this. Hugs and prayers for you and Stewey.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear this news. You must be devasted, we were only celebrating his Birthday recently. I know he will appreciate all the love and attention you can give him over the next few months. He may complain in his blog posts but I know he loves you dearly too.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you. Stewey is very lucky to have you for a Mom. My prayers are with you. I type these words through tears as I cannot imagine your blog without Stewey. I hug my 3 fur babies a little closer.
ReplyDeleteHow sad ! All my thoughts are with you and little Stewey...
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for the news, Coni. Stewey was never just a dog, he is family. You will both be in my prayers and I send you love.
ReplyDeleteI just burst into tears. Hugs to you both.
ReplyDeleteJust let him pee on the carpets as much as he wants! Roxie my Jack Russel was 12 when she lost her fight with cancer. I know now that I allowed her to go on 2 weeks or more because I couldn't stand the thought of life without her. I didn't think I could do it - take her when it was time. However I couldn't allow her to be with someone other than me when it was the end. I was amazed at how peaceful the whole end of life was. The people at the clinic we so kind and gentle with both of us. I held her in my arms when they gave her the injection and it was so peaceful. Then I realized she was no longer suffering and made at myself for prolonging it because I couldn't stand the thought of going on without her. The next day my husband came home with a 7 week old Jack Russel - her name is Jackie the Jack Russel. She could hardly stand up or walk she was so young. She needed me as much as I needed her. I slept in the Lazy Boy for a week or so with her sleeping on my chest/broken heart. I know she helped me heal. I still cry over Roxie and I miss her everyday.
ReplyDeleteCherish each and every day - May God Bless you and Stewey and make you strong when the time comes.
May you enjoy each moment you have together. And may you have many happy memories to help console you. Always difficult.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you both and wishing there could be some brilliant words that would make it all better. Peace and love for both of you.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. Give him lots of gentle hugs and hugs for you Coni
ReplyDeleteOh, Coni dear, the love story is not over yet and you have been graced with the time to reinforce the love and devotion you have given Stewey love. It will not be easy to let him go, but at the time I pray you will realize that you are giving him the gift of release, permitting him to enjoy bountiful life beyond the rainbow bridge until you see his tail wagging you welcome one day. In the meantime, love him tenderly, soothe him with your words and care and thank the good Lord, you had such a unique and charming creature to share your life. We will
ReplyDeletebe with you, praying you through beyond the end.... Be
still in trust and let Heaven tenderly carry him home when it is time... Be brave and go on with the gifted life
you live so well....Bless you, bless you, dear Coni.
I am so sorry. Give him lots of gentle hugs and hugs for you Coni
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this news. I have come to look forward to the posts and see what mischief Stewie has been up to. God bless you both. Nancy
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this news. I have come to look forward to the posts and see what mischief Stewie has been up to. God bless you both. Nancy
ReplyDeleteOh, Coni!!!!!!! I am so sorry! I am praying for you and your sweet angel!
ReplyDeleteYou are lucky enough to have caring friends that will help you through this. You will give your beloved Stewie a "good end", even though it is way to soon. You will carry him forever in your heart. And someday you will love again.
ReplyDeleteI actually gasped when I read this. I'm so so very sorry to hear this news. Pets are like FAMILY so your feelings are completely understood by me. No shame in them. I usually don't comment, just every now then but I check up on you and Stewie just about every week. Had to express my condolences on the bad news about Stewie's condition.
ReplyDeleteConi, I am so sad to hear this news. Not trivial at all. I've had several cats and dogs (and rabbits and fish) as companions in my adult life. Love them all and cried when they each passed. Yes, even for Romeo, my beta fish. But, if we are lucky, there will be one that we love so deeply we can't imagine life without them. For me, that was my Cavalier King Charles, Jemimah. Never in my life would I have imagined that one small furry being could inspire such love and that losing her would be so devastating. She was diagnosed with a squamous cell carcinoma in July 2013 and passed in September 2014, just weeks after her 9th birthday. Even when she was a very small puppy, I would look at her and think "What am I going to do when you are gone?" because I knew that one day my world would end. I'm sad to say that in that last year I slowly detached from Jemimah emotionally. I simply could not function on a day to day basis while feeling the impending loss every day for 14 months. It was too much. It's been almost 2 years now and I am just now thinking that maybe someday I will be strong enough to open my life and heart to another dog. Someday. That is how devastating it is to lose a family member. You just aren't sure whether you can face that kind of loss, that kind of pain again. I am not telling you this to make you sadder, Coni. I'm telling you, so you will truly understand that you are not alone and so that you will know that what you are going through is far from trivial. We (your online family) love you, Stewey and Bosco, too, and will be holding you in our thoughts.
ReplyDeleteDear Coni...My eyes teared up at your news. Poor Stewey and poor Coni. Losing furbabies is never easy. My heart breaks for you. Hold him close
ReplyDeleteConi, I'm so sorry to hear this. Love on the little guy...we'll be here when you need us. My deepest sympathies.
ReplyDeleteOh Coni, I am so sorry for both you, Bosco, and of course, Stewey, and will hold you in my prayers. Pets are our children and losing one is never easy, and least of all, trivial. My dog had epilepsy and died after 9 short years. You will remember moments with him and cherish them all the more, and know that you gave him a very wonderful life.
ReplyDeleteOh Coni, I am so sorry for both you, Bosco, and of course, Stewey, and will hold you in my prayers. Pets are our children and losing one is never easy, and least of all, trivial. My dog had epilepsy and died after 9 short years. You will remember moments with him and cherish them all the more, and know that you gave him a very wonderful life.
ReplyDeleteDear Coni, your blog always brings a smile to my face and I thank you for sharing. I'm sending you hugs and hope you tough it out as best you can. That's all we can do. Don't apologize for feeling so sad over your pet. He's a family member, and you have every right to your feelings. You are stronger than you think and you'll know how best to navigate this.
ReplyDeleteHello Coni-
ReplyDeleteReading your blog has brought me so much JOY and crafty inspiration. Though I don't know you personally, you have made such a positive impact of my life. I can't find the words to tell you how much my heart goes out to you and Stewey. I am praying for you both. You have so many readers (friends) with you in spirit. Stewey has such a beautiful life with tons of love. Please know you're not alone.
My heart breaks for you. Please give Stewey a kiss on the nose for me. You will make it through this! Hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh Coni, I am so sorry to read your post. I know pets are an important part of our lives, and are loved like family members. At least ours are, and I know yours. You will make it through this. Be rest assured you have given Stewey a good life and lots of love. He couldn't have wished for more. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is absolutely broken for you. This is the toughest thing about being a pet parent. Hoping that you & Stewey can feel the love we all have for both of you. Prayers & hugs.
ReplyDeleteI normally do not post comment but.... I am so sorry to hear about Stewey. Lots of thoughts and prayers for you. Stewey is one of a kind especially with those smoking jackets!!! May all the time you have with him feel you with joy.
ReplyDeleteWhen He crosses over the rainbow bridge he will remember he was loved. I wish you many hours of love with him.
DeleteI am a regular reader, but not a regular commenter. You and Stewey bring a little joy to my days. For what little it's worth, I am so very sorry.
ReplyDeleteI stumbled on your blog a few months ago Coni. Not one to comment on blogs, but I frequently check your blog to read your updates. You are a gifted writer and you always make me smile; quite often laugh out loud.
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry for your heartache and wish I could write something to make your heartache go away. My thoughts and prayers for you and Stewey.
Our pets aren't trivial. I'm so sorry to hear this news. I'll be thinking of you both.
ReplyDeleteMy Dear Coni,
ReplyDeleteI am stunned by your sad news. I wish I could come up with something eloquent to say, but those words elude me right now. Suffice it to say that my heart hurts for you and Stewey. Don't ever think that the feelings you, and many of us, have in regards to our fur-babies are trivial. I lost my sweet Cocker Spaniel, Lizzie, and thought my heart would never heal. She was as human to me as anything walking upright, and it's evident you feel the same about your beloved Stewey. Please know that there are many, many 'friends' out there who will keep you in their thoughts and prayers!!
-Sherry-
Oh Coni, I'm so sorry to read this. Having been a pet owner most of my life,I know how hard this is. Hugs to you and Stewey.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is crying with yours. You and Stewed are my favorite bloggers!! We are all here for you.
ReplyDeleteThe minute I read the word, I began to cry. I am so sorry, all us pet owners know the heartbreak of love.
ReplyDeleteI also am so sorry this horrible disease has visited you and our boy. Yep, he's all of ours too, just as you are our sister. Hugs and snuggles to both of you,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteOh Coni....what can I say that all those above haven't saiid? Most of us have been through this, many times. It is never easier!! But across the Rainbow Bridge, perhaps there will be squirrels to chase and birds to watch. Many thoughts and prayers for you.
ReplyDeleteDebbie in Kansas
please know how very sad I am to read this news. I am heartbroken for you. Try to stay as strong as possible.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. There are no words so sending comforting thoughts to both of you.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is broken for you.
ReplyDeleteThis may be the saddest thing I have read. I am so very sorry Spinster Stitcher. I will keep you and dear Stewey in my thoughts and prayers with hopes of no pain. You have been a good Mother to him and I know you will continue to shower him with love as we all shower you with love and good thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI don't even know what to say, dear Coni. Love to you from me, and love to Master Stewey, God's noble creature indeed! ♥♥♥
ReplyDeletePraying for you and Stewey. It is so hard to get bad news about a treasured family member. You are both in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI'm heart broken for the both of you. :(
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain, and send love and hugs to you both.
ReplyDeleteThrough my tears I send you both hugs
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about Stewey. Last year I lost my dog of 11 years due to a sudden illness and it was horrible. It was right before our moving to a new house and I so wanted her with me and would always tell her about the new house. Take more precious pictures and love and hold the little guy while you can. You'll never regret it.
ReplyDeleteSo so sorry to hear your news. Praying for both of you! :'-(
ReplyDeleteI'm so, so sorry about Stewey. Please God you will have a long time together still and you will know what to do for him and when. God took my sweet angel puppy Duffy home in December 2014, and I have missed him every minute of every day since. Knowing he is waiting for me in heaven keeps me on the straight and narrow. I know some people don't get it, but I do, and I know you do. They are your heart. I'm thinking of you and praying for you both. Life really sucks sometimes. Big hugs.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to read this news. As the "Mom" to numerous four-legged kids over the years, I know how sad and difficult it is to find out that one of them is sick and there is nothing you can do. Please know that so many of us are keeping you and Stewey in our thoughts and prayers as you go through this. Please know that you are not alone!
ReplyDeleteI read this info a while ago, but had trouble posting comments from my tablet at the time. I am so sorry to hear about Stewey's diagnosis. I have been through this once before, when my beloved dog passed away in 2009 at age 15 1/2 after a 3-week illness. I miss him every single day. Praying for both of you.
ReplyDeleteCarolyn