Feb 11, 2013

JUST NOT WORTHY

I'm sitting here watching my little sister sleep after what has been a ridiculously bad day for her.  I promised her that I wouldn't tell the whole world all of her secrets, so I will, instead, tell you that my sister is the bravest person I know.

She hasn't been feeling very well for a very long time now, so part of trying to get her better is a series of tests that will tell the docs here in Cleveland how they can fix her.  Logically, we know that these guys are the best, and mentally, we know that this test is what is necessary, but it didn't do a damn thing to make it any easier to endure.

But my sister took a deep breath, wiped away her tears, and said "Let's get this over with" before I was able to figure out where to hang our coats.  She was brave.  Oh, my God, was she brave.  I stood behind her to lend what I hoped was feeble support, but instead all I could do was bawl that my little sister had to be so scared and in so much pain.

It bloody well sucked.

Tomorrow morning, bright and early, she'll have the monitor removed, and then we can prepare for the next test.  The only good thing with this one is that we already know that she will be knocked out for it.

Too bad I won't be, but I promise that I'll try to be a little brave.....and maybe worthy of a sister like our dear Aunt Chrissy....

Keep those happy thoughts, kids.  We'll see you on the other side!

46 comments:

  1. Hi Coni - So sorry to hear that your sister is not well. My prayers are with you two right now. I hope everything will turn out well for you both.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Thinking only the happiest thoughts for both of you. Being brave is hard, especially when you have to watch.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Sometimes the tests are worse than the problem, almost. From experience, I think it is harder to watch a loved one endure than to have the procedure yourself. Know that you are in our thoughts. Best wishes to your little sister...

    ReplyDelete
  4. Oh Coni, it is so hard to stand by, have faith in the doctors and just be there for Chrissy. We feel as though we know you and her - just a little bit - and we wish you both the very best of good health. Irene xxx

    ReplyDelete
  5. Coni, so sorry to hear that Chrissy is having to go through yucky crap, and glad that she has you there with her. You're both in my thoughts and prayers.

    ReplyDelete
  6. I am very sorry for the physical struggle of your sister and the helplessness that those of us who stand by our loved ones experience. I pray that your answers will come swiftly and that this will soon be a distant sa memory!

    ReplyDelete
  7. Hoping for the easiest route to the end of the tests and the best results possible.

    ReplyDelete
  8. I'm so sorry to hear she's been/is in such pain. Bless her heart. I hope she is able to rest, get past the pain, and get thru the next steps. Hang in there sister...all the best for tomorrow. Will pray that the wonderful doctors will (WILL!) find solutions.

    ReplyDelete
  9. Thoughts and prayers going up for you and Aunt Chrissy! It is so hard to watch as a loved ones has to go through so much.. Praying for a quick solution and for Aunt Chrissy to bounce back quick!

    ReplyDelete
  10. Hi Coni,
    So sorry your sister is going through so much right now.... best wishes and many prayers for the doctors to find the issue and take care of it quickly....
    I'm sure that having you beside her while she goes through this is good medicine for her.... you are indeed a good sister!

    ReplyDelete
  11. It sucks when family members are sick or hurt and you think you can't do anything about it. Just being there and caring is the best thing you CAN do. Many hugs to you both, and ear skritches or tummy rubs for Stewey & Bosco!

    ReplyDelete
  12. Tell Aunt Chrissy we're thinking of her and sending wishes that the docs in Cleveland will fix her up tout de suite.

    And you are so worthy.

    I hope tomorrow is a better day for both of you with even better days to follow.

    ReplyDelete
  13. Please let Aunt Chrissy know we are thinking of her, and wish her well with her test results. Also sending good thoughts your way to give you the strength to support her. I know that is now easy either.

    Hope tomorrow will be better.

    ReplyDelete
  14. Prayers and good thoughts for you and your sister. Cleveland Clinic? They saved my mom form having a HUGE unnecessary surgery. They gave mom her life back.

    ReplyDelete
  15. Hang on. We're pulling for you guys to have this over el quicko so the doctors can produce a plan to make it all better fast.

    ReplyDelete
  16. Extra postive thoughts for both you and Crissy. So hard to see someone we love in pain

    ReplyDelete
  17. Coni,
    It is hard to see a loved one go through so much pain and uncertainty. Your presence strengthens her, even if you feel that you are falling apart. Prayers, hugs, and wishes that the doctors will find a solution to the problem and that your sister returns to good health pronto.

    Evelyn in Newport News....

    ReplyDelete
  18. thoughts and prayers going to you and Aunt Chrissy.

    ReplyDelete
  19. Coni, thinking of. Aunt Chrissy and sending prayers that she will soon be good as new. You are in my prayers,too.

    ReplyDelete
  20. It's always worse when it's your sissy. All best to you both.

    ReplyDelete
  21. I'm keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers!

    ReplyDelete
  22. Please accept my thoughts and prayers for you and your sister. Take care.

    ReplyDelete
  23. Dear Coni -- I am so sorry. I hope all goes well and Aunt Chrissy is home where she belongs again soon. Hugs to you both.

    ReplyDelete
  24. Good luck - I am hoping for the best for you and your dear sweet sister!

    ReplyDelete
  25. Good wishes winging their way to Chrissy and you. All will be well in the end, and if all is not well, then it is not the end.

    ReplyDelete
  26. Here's a great big hug for both Aunt Chrissy and you. My prayers are with you.

    ReplyDelete
  27. I hope Aunt Chrissy will be okay hun; we'll keep you and her in our prayers hun...

    Hugs, Shar

    ReplyDelete
  28. Oh Coni, you are SO worthy. Chrissy is so lucky to have you there! I've been in your shoes: the big sister, sitting in the hospital, watching the little sister...frightened...it's a very hard job. The one thing I DO know, is that you've always been a great sister. Every word you've ever blogged about her has been loving and supportive.
    Love to both of you, from Winnipeg. Be well!

    ReplyDelete
  29. Coni, I'm keeping you and Aunt Chrissy in my thoughts and prayers.{{{HUGS}}}

    ReplyDelete
  30. Keeping you both in my thoughts.

    ReplyDelete
  31. Sending you and Aunt Chrissy well wishes and hugs!

    ReplyDelete
  32. Sending warm thoughts and many hugs. I will keep you both in my prayers.

    ReplyDelete
  33. I am so sorry that your sister is having to go through this. You are both very lucky to have each other as support though! Sorry your time in Cleveland is kinda yukky, versus fun and stashy too!

    Take care, our prayers are with both of you.

    ReplyDelete
  34. Sending my heartfelt prayers for both of you. Cathryn

    ReplyDelete
  35. Positive thoughts and prayers from Cleveland. And Yes, please know you (I say you because you are your sister are one) in the best hands in the world.

    Denise

    ReplyDelete
  36. You are both in my prayers.♥

    ReplyDelete
  37. So glad you have each other to love and support! When I take my sis to the clinic and sit with her during chemo, we still giggle and enjoy being there together. Working through the fear is part of the process. Hugs and love to you both!

    ReplyDelete
  38. Sending you warm hugs and prayers from our two-legged and four-legged family to yours!

    ~Judy in Critter Cove

    ReplyDelete
  39. Sister in Stitches, BrendaFebruary 12, 2013 at 11:07 AM

    Sending you love and support along with my prayers from Texas. I know all too well the helplessnes of sitting by while a loved one goes thru hell. Please know that God is with you every step of the way and so is your family of stitchers. Love to all!

    ReplyDelete
  40. Thinking of you both. Would hold your hands for a moment if I could, then would trot off for the best cure of all: a nice cold Diet Coke.

    ReplyDelete
  41. Will lift her up in prayer and you also to be brave!
    Amy from Oklahoma

    ReplyDelete
  42. Sending you both positive thoughts and hugs.

    ReplyDelete
  43. Prayers, good thoughts, and lots of love coming your way. Hope everything turns out ok for Chrissy.
    Carolyn

    ReplyDelete
  44. Saying lots of prayers everything goes ok with your sister!!!!!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  45. Positive thoughts to both of you.

    ReplyDelete